Wednesday, January 20, 2010


I ate yesterday. It was spur of the moment. I had just recieved a phone call regarding an interview I was waiting for. I was so excited that I told my boyfriend we could eat at Burger King.( I had coupons) I invited my sister out of politeness and she suggested that we eat at Applebee's instead since that is where her boyfriend works and he was currently on the clock. Of course, I agreed and ate more than I should have. Once I eat, I sometimes use that as an excuse to continue eating since I have already failed once.
Today, I woke up with the intention of not eating. It was going well. I took my brother bowling and when we got back to my parent's house, the door was locked. He found $5 in his pockets so we went to Little Caesars. Their pizzas don't necessarily tempt me... but the crazy bread does. So I ordered for the two of us and blurted out
"And an order of crazy bread please." I did not think through the consequences. You know me. I ate almost all of them, all God only knows how many calories. I have hamburger helper planned for dinner for my boyfriend. I promise I won't touch that. We are going to watch According to Greta tonight with Hilary Duff which I am sure will be a thinspo inspiring movie. And tomorrow, I will exhale 0 at night.

Lastly, I would like to admit that somedays I don't come on here. Some days, I deliberately cringe away from the laptop. It is because I feel so guilty about haveing eaten something I shouldn't have. It always is. So, forgive me when I fail to update. I swear I will be 88 pounds before summer. I swear Ana. I swear.